2005-2006

I take off a jacket
soaked from being unwanted
my knees still tremble
fingers chilled to the bone

there is no fire nearby
it’s hard to warm yourself
on words of rejection
I reach for hot tea
raspberry syrup —
sharp today

the dog still has the same loving eyes
and the maple rustles
as if whispering it will pass
tell that
to a girl like me
who for a week has been almost transparent

I don’t know who is speaking
but the voice is clear

one day this will do you good
there are no accidents

I didn’t believe the fortune-teller then
yet she was right
may your relationship be light
they say you cannot build happiness on someone else’s sorrow
so I insist I am happy
so that at least one of us
comes out of this well

I want as soon as possible
to dry at least the sleeves
so I don’t catch a fatal cold